Jailhouse Religion

You know what I mean when I say jailhouse religion, right?!!!! I was watching First Week In on TLC (because I enjoy criminal justice reality TV for some strange reason) and I started noticing a trend. Individuals who get "caught up" in the justice system seems to always find their way to the Holy Bible. When they find themselves in a situation, they call on the name of Jesus. They beg and plead on their hands and knees for God to deliver them out of the "lion's den".

Well I talked to a friend this morning and when I got off the phone with her, I started praying and God convicted my heart. "Why do you pray to me only when in need? When you want me to provide for you, then you call, but what about the other days?" Well..... you should have saw the look on my face!!!! I'm so guilty!! And to make it worse, I talk down on people who do it to me!!! Don't call me when you only need money or want to borrow my car, because I'm not going to answer the phone!!!!! Conviction, CONviction, CONVICTION!!!!!! We have to do better, people....or is it just me?

God did say he would never leave us nor forsake us yet we do it to him; we do it so effortlessly! When we get into a bind, we instantly start quoting scriptures we didn't even know we knew!! LOL We start trying to convict God!!!! The audacity we have, right!!!?

Lets start incorporating God more into our lives. Not just a "Thank you God for waking me up this morning and starting me on my way", but lets start putting more feeling into thanking and respecting him. We need to spend some quality, alone time with him. Remember the song, "Quality time, with you"! I can't remember who sung that song! Either R. Kelly or Guy!  Anyway, you get my point. Let's develop a friendship with God and not just a take, take take. I'm sure you'll find it more meaningful than you ever thought.

Been A While

Hello all!! I know I started off pretty well, posting everyday or at least every other day!! Since then, I have started working and started grad school and now I am realizing how much free time I had back then and how much I miss it!!!!! AAAHHHH

This new job that I will be resigning from next week (LOL) is a Night Auditor position and man oh man, this girl was not created for the night shift!!!  I was doing so well getting to work on time, at 11:00 pm but tonight I overslept!!! I received a call at 11:20pm wondering were I was!! Luckily I only stay 5 mins away!!

I guess God doesn't like ugly!! LOL I had a little 'tude ...(attitude) with my husband before falling asleep so I guess that came back to bite me in the butt!!! It's so funny how we can sleep through a phone alarm but wake up on that first call after you're late!! Unbelievable!!!!

Today just isn't the day for me!! I don't feel like reading 4 chapters for class or anything!! This difference in work schedule is getting to me! I'm used to the 08:00am-4:30pm working schedule!!! This gives me time to be away from the hubby, make money, but also spend quality, family time after work! That's hard to do when I have to be sleep by 2pm and up at 10pm and he's getting ready for bed at 10.  And then to top that off, I get off at 7am tomorrow then turn around and have to be back by 3pm the same day!!! Let's just pray I don't oversleep this time!!!!!

Last day of work is weekend after next!!!! Whoohoo!! I enjoyed the experience and hopefully in the future I can venture into that B&B but for now, I think I'll stick to accounting!!!

No Life For Me

I have taken a liking to the First 48, Prison Wives, and everything else involved in incarceration.  I don’t know if it’s the fact that it makes me more appreciative in the state that I’m in or is it the interest in trying to find the root cause of other’s misfortune.

I was watching one episode of the First 48 and this young man was so remorseful for taking a life of an innocent guy. He was crying and just distraught. Of course I felt bad for him but the moment he changed into jail attire and the handcuffs were put on, he turned into an animal.

That episode reminded me of the movie Planet of the Apes. It made me so sick to my stomach that even though that’s a movie, it is real in our day in age. Don’t get me wrong; I believe everyone should pay for the crimes they commit. I just wish there was another way.

From my view on the outside looking in, prison is a whole other world. It’s a world of no freedom and a daily struggle for life. People are literally caged! I’m sure boarded dogs have better treatment!! I guess I’m just sensitive but I know the moment someone violated me, I would want him or her behind bars.

I've watched many inmates interview about raping other inmates as well as being raped. Of course some of it is for pleasure but a lot of it is to instill fear and show dominance. That just hurts me! For men, the being that we view as all powerful, to be broken down due to rape is so sad. 

I just want to see something positive come from incarceration and prison.  Prisons were initially established to give criminals time to reflect upon their actions but I personally don’t think that’s enough. I’m sure they have programs in prison now that helps promote a better way of life but I also think proper support system is needed. I think good prison ministries and great communication with family can help but still more is needed. We have to start preaching forgiveness no matter how hard it is.

Even when people are released back into society, we act as if we don’t want them here. On EVERY job application it request criminal background information. 9 times out of 10 no one wants to hire a felon no matter what they have done! It’s such a catch 22! I have heard of farms that hire individuals with criminal backgrounds and I think that's awesome. I'm sure there are more business avenues out there that can be taken that helps a business as well as the individual settle back into society. The streets will always be there unfortunately, but if we can show that we care more and want more for them, hopefully that will be more appealing.